“It’ll be fine!”

“They’ve had a great day!”

You give me positive spins and tell me not to worry.

This is not a safe space.

“Have you told them about Albert Einstein and Greta Thunberg?”

“They are not like other Autistics I’ve met”

You’ve only read the headlines and you are not getting this.

This is not a safe space.

“Would they like a visual timetable?”

“Or an exercise ball?”

You want a quick fix. I know you want me out of here.

This is not a safe space.

I choose to look okay, to seem pleasant and compliant because I need you to help me, even though you don’t understand and I know you won’t help because you don’t get it. So I need to seem nice and cordial and get out as quick as I can.

I don’t want to seem ungrateful so let’s get this over and done with.

You don’t have a choice; you are stuck there all day. No one gets it; you can’t escape so it’s about getting through the day and until you get home, to your safe space.

“Are you in the blue?”

This is not a safe space.

2 thoughts on “Masking..

  1. This really hit home for me-a bit of sadness.

    After 3 years homeschooling and recovering, I hired an advocate today to help me set things up this year to hopefully get a better placement for my 11 year old. It’s been nice to avoid people who don’t understand my child.

    I look forward to your posts during the week.

    1. Hi Lori. Thanks for your message. We have recently done the same. We have finally found a placement we think could potentially work and it was a huge relief, while being at home was really needed to repair and heal, after two years we felt we needed a change. Eliza

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